Transfer, Surrogate, Transfer

First, WHAT in the name of all that is holy was I THINKING??!! Today is day four of progesterone, and I seem to have developed a wee bit of arse-jabbing forgetfulness. I woke up on Friday to the strangest sensation of having been beat in my sleep, Saturday I was sure of it, and today is Sunday.. I am seriously dreading the upcoming arse poke. It’s not the *poke* that hurts, but the bruise to the meat when the gallon and a half of progesterone is injected.

Note to self, COOK>POKE>COOK>RUB. Do NOT deviate from the tried-and-true! I’m blaming it on older lump-meat. It’s just not as forgiving as it was two (!) years ago. I had a three-hour drive ( each way) today to go up and grab my mother for babysitting purposes in the upcoming days, and I am not even joking when I say that I nearly FELL DOWN when I got out of the car, so strong was the protest coming from my left arse. Gah. I’m such a weenie. And yet, I sign up for it anyway.

Second… I had to find a sitter because……. we’re TRANSFERRING on Wednesday!!!!! We ended up with a FANTASTIC retrieval (26) and a statistic finger-giving initial fert. Report (17) so I am very much optimistic about this upcoming event. I fly out at a nice comfortable 11am tomorrow, and will fly home in time for dinner Friday. It will be a LONG week away from my kids, and I already miss them. I know they will have a BLAST with their grandma and may not even notice I’m gone, but I sure will. I miss them already. However, I am bound and determined to relax this week, take this transfer trip for the gift that it is and let my body rest to get ready to grow my intended parents a baby. That’s what this is all about, and this is the event I’ve been looking forward to for months.. I can hardly believe the time is here!

Sticky thoughts, please! I’m hoping the next time you hear from me I’ll be fondling a hand full of big fat positive pregnancy tests for *my* mama!

Sabrina is a Gestational Surrogate and Mama. She also writes about her journeys at Bump Fairy: Like the Tooth Fairy Only Fatter ca-pub-3017103269052419